Living a life lost in translation

This weekend has been odd. I think I feel very alone, and I don't quite know how to handle it. I'm not sure I'm the type of person who can just throw myself out into the open. I may be strong sometimes... for instance if I see any Caucasian (which there aren't many here) I say, "Hello!" But I think that's easy for me because I know it will not go anywhere. I don't know how to make friends from total strangers. I'm pretty sure for a very long time I have just made friends with my friends' friends. I know I have made my own friends, after all, I had friends at college... but I feel like a completely different person than then. It's not like I expect anything bad to happen. It's more like, the easiest thing would be to sit in my suite and watch English movies. I just don't know how to force myself to do things that aren't easy. I don't mean with life. I've done some really challenging things (for instance, coming here). I mean with people. I don't take risks with people. I don't even know where to begin! Even if I joined a class, I doubt there will be anyone who can speak English. I am friends with Lindsay and Brad, but I don't want to bug them when they are trying to spend our little free time together. Hmmm....