Saturday, March 28, 2009
Well, I've been avoiding updating for a while because I've been having a hard time. I don't want any of you to worry about me. I'm not sure what's wrong, but I think it was triggered by my Canadian friend, Bradley, leaving Taiwan. Now both he and Lindsay are gone-- which leaves me with no one to talk to. I have friends, but none of them are close with me, and don't have any real need/want to see me. Which means I'm back to a point in my life where if I want to do something besides sit at home and watch movies I have to initiate it. I find myself tagging along a lot.
I'm definitely at a low point here. I feel like my life here in Taiwan has become distorted. I haven't even left Hsinchu since that run I went on! Hsinchu is nice but it's not exactly fascinating. Quite boring after you've explored it. I'm mad at myself for not making the most of my time here, but the truth is, I'm not the type of person to travel to other cities alone. I mean, look at what happened in Hong Kong. Can we say, disaster?
I feel like a child saying it, but I want to come home. There's no way I could stay for another year. I don't regret coming here at all, but I'm just not sure I'm the type of person who can live so far away from home. I hope that I can find a job in the U.S.... I'm going to stay until August, when my contract is up with the Language School, and then move back home.
That doesn't mean we won't be glad to have you back whenever you return. But as long as you're there, make taking care of yourself a priority - and then see if you can't have soak up some of the adventure, too. Your scooter trip strikes me as a very good start.
And know that your friends back home love you and are rooting for you! xoxoxo